Restless..

A lot of the time now, I feel super duper restless.

I guess the root cause is that I do not have friends around. I have none. Other than my husband , my mom and my little poppin.

Office - I need it , i have to work, its a part of me. The new boss is killing it though.
I would not have cared if I had a ffriend with whom I could bitch about him.
And he , the boss, was fired from his previous firm, has a wife who is unemployed and two small kids to take care of. And so I do not complain. I am not that lovey dovey sweet. Its just that I fear the curse will be on me if I report his deeds , his ego issues and the like, and if the supervisors decide that he go.

I am restless. On such days , I keep log on to my  mail every few mins, logging on to FB,  lurking on the other blogs to see if any1 has updated theirs.
I promise myself that I ll start my work soon after this one last check and its noon already.
I am restless.

I wanna feel better. It doesnt help that with the baby and the chores I do not call my old friends now. I am closing all the doors. I cannot think of even a handfull of people whom I can call. I brought this upon myself.

It was work , work and rush home home.. I did not want poppin to be neglected coz I have a job , I could not take the time I spent with him to maintain relationships.  I decided so. I dont rgret it as such, but wonder if I could have managed it better.