Her head felt so heavy. It was as though there were hundreds of rubber bands stretched within.
She spoke to him about it. He was angry again.
She told him that she needed help. He asked her to get out of the mess before it was too late.
But she could not. She did not know what exactly the mess was. He did not know either.
But she was not her usual self. Usual as in , herself a few months ago.
The panic was rising. The panic was killing her.
She was having trouble with her ears too. The doc asked her if something was bothering her. She said NO coz her mom was near.
She was smart, she was a happy go lucky gal who had whatever she wanted in life.
She topped the scores though she didnt put much effort and there she was ready to fly.
A few mistakes , emotions and sentiments made her choose the wrong career options. And then time flew fast and it was beyond her control . She was swept away by the flow. THe money kept coming and she daily slogged coz the money kept coming.
Then came her wonderful years of being the new bride , of being a wonderful momma and a good daughter.
Then she started losing herself. It started when he lost his cool over everthign that she did.
And then she started to keep away from him to escape his wrath. The words , the temper .. she thought it was better if she was physically abused.
She kept to herself coz she did not want any1 to know about how she felt about him. She loved him. SHe wanted him to have a good name . she did not want to let others know that there was trouble in paradise. She tried to keep it within. She put on a happy face but he saw it through. He realised his mistakes but she was by then deep in her shell, in a world where she had none. He tried to bring her back but she was afraid of him . She could not even make conversation with him. He was an alien.
She started to shut people out and then she was being a vegetable.
She wants to come out of the deep mess , the mess she cannot explain, the mess she does not want to jump out of.
Help her , will you?
